Saturday, January 31, 2015

So Cute

There you go again standing in the doorway listening to the way they hum along to a tune playing only in their head. You smile and shake your head trying to contain your laughter. They twirl their bangs around their fingernail and sway to the beat ever so subtly. Finally they raise their gaze and see you in the mirror behind them, stepping closer and closer until you can wrap your arms around their waist and kiss the base of their neck. I love the way you love. It's such a wonderfully beautiful thing. 

Friday, January 30, 2015

Beautiful Reactivity

My yellows and your oranges make the brightest scarlet anyone has ever seen. My burning magentas and your calming, deep blues make a violet so royal it still makes your god jealous. My pure, creamy, untouched whites and your guarded, jaded ebony form silver that miners confuse for diamonds. Together we put both heaven and hell to shame. Alone we're just cracks in the sidewalk beneath each other's feet. That's how we know this love was meant to be. 

Thursday, January 29, 2015

Lipstick Stained Enlightenment

I told you that there will come a day when I write our story on you and an evening for painting on your chest as there will be a late night for connecting the dots (following your freckles down your body) with fairy kisses and the gentle nibble of a butterfly. You remember how I smiled when I explained that someday you will be known as my greatest masterpiece, just as I will be known as your favorite artist of all time (I hope). One day you will have absolutely no room to question whether I love you or not because I will put my heart and soul on display for the stars, the moon, and all of Time to witness in the most glorious of ways. Because I promise someday I will hold myself to it and angels will weep at the sight, heaven itself will be jealous, all the poets never known will turn in their graves, and you will never be quite as happy as anyone else. 

Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Corrupted Justice

I remember the way Superman stole my heart and taught me how to sell myself. I remember losing faith in superheroes and asking myself why so many people had to say I looked just like the first actress for Lois Lane. I remember every summer night I spent letting Superman have his way with another beautiful fan girl (me). I'm never going to forget it, but I've gotten a better superhero in my life now - one who has redefined all the words associated with superheroes.

Thank you. 

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

With a New Start

And if these tears decide to fall. If I can't keep them back. If this is all too much, too fast please, please don't look this way. Don't let me break down. Don't let me destroy myself just because of the scene. Don't look at me so you won't have anything new to worry about. But if I break, of this is the end, please don't waste your time picking up my pieces. Darling, I can't promise you that this won't end well, but I can't see anything being alright either. 

Monday, January 26, 2015


Just like the flowers in your garden you are supposed to shock the world and bloom from the inside out. To focus on who you are before molding your shell. Only then can I be the sun you like to see me as. 

Sunday, January 25, 2015

Sunday Morning Serenade

Your brilliant cherry-stained smoke fills the room and your eyes shine in a new kind of light. I love watching the grey trails waltz themselves and the rest of the darkness away from our world. Often times I wounder if you have any idea how much moments like these mean to me. 

Saturday, January 24, 2015

Willing to Make it Work

I promise to be your angel if only you would let me. But you see strangers got good at keeping you away and monsters stole my wings, halo, and anything else lovely I've ever had. I promise to be your masterpiece if only you'd hold me. Because I've been a misused canvass to everyone else all my life and it's about time someone treats me right. I promise to catch you every time you fall. Because I've gotten way too good at moving fast and staying strong for the people I'm around. Really Darling, I would give everything for a single chance to be your anything. 

Friday, January 23, 2015

Unbearable Nights

I've tried offering the keeper of dreams everything I've ever had just so he would let me relive the ones with you once more when you're gone. I don't think he understands how horrifying it is to live without someone who taught you everything you know about yourself. I don't think he's ever known loneliness like this. 

Thursday, January 22, 2015


You look at her with a sparkle in your eye and a glimmer in your heart. She smiles back like a movie star's photograph and her laughter reminds you of a melody your mother once played in a lullaby for you. Together the two of you can outshine the sun, you make angels jealous and give hope to suicidal drops of rain. It's the kind of love you can't fake - the type of happiness so many wait entire lifetimes for. 

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Giggling Alarm Clock

You've never know simple joy until you've fallen asleep in the arms of someone who turns every moment you spend together into an inside joke later on. Someone able to try new things with and for you while still introducing you to their own favorites. But even love like that's not the simple joy I mean to tell you of now. You've never known simple joy until you've fallen asleep in the arms of someone that lets you feel beautiful even when you're in sweatpants and oversized T-shirts. Only to wake up to the sound of their laughter ringing throughout the room. Real, true, honest laughter and the sunshiney brilliance of their smile, woven with the warmth of their heart, braided into your souls. The kind of simple joy no one truly gets until they live it - the kind of joy that goes hand in hand with human pillows and single word dreams before they transform into eternal memories. If you've never known such a simple jy I promise you that you'll love a giggling alarm clock. 

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Paper Birds

Until the little things remind you of them you don't actually need them around. In fact, to keep them around would be such a shame. Distracting you from strangers waiting to get in and brighten your every moment. "Shame , shame,always such a shame" goes the song I'll sing 'til the day you understand. 

Monday, January 19, 2015

Homeless Attempts

Will you listen if I tell you that I've spent over a thousand pages writing you poetic letters and infinite walls trying to paint the perfect scene for you. Oh and Darling, I have a very important point to make while I have you here before the alcohol kicks in and pulls you away from me again. You are my artistry and I will forever be your artist.

Sunday, January 18, 2015

Our Brightest Star

You are going to call me crazy but I have to tell you this. The words you are about to read are the most important words you will ever read. You need to hear this - really. It will change your life in ways you've never even imagined in your wildest dreams.

Smile. Do it. Every day. 

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Left to Ponder

There is a sense of kindness in the gentle stroke of darkness. You needn't be afraid of it. Ever. 

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

The Great Passing of Time

Have you ever noticed the way all the faces in the crowd suddenly blur together and look like their's. How days pass and you swear you don't miss them anymore just because you haven't cried. The way the radio seems to fade away when songs that don't tell your story are not playing and then it's so loud that the entire city can hear when they are. That ghosts throw pebbles at your window as they try to steal your heart and bring themselves back to life in your world. Have you ever noticed the way no one you meet feels right anymore unless they have a pice of me inside of them - and even then they don't last long because though there are similarities the differences are far too great. Now it is time for you to understand this is why it will never work with another nearly as well - this is what happens when you treat love like a game. i hope you learn the lesson before you try coming back because I've already found someone so much better than you could ever be. 

Monday, January 12, 2015

Sunday, January 11, 2015

Pure Bliss

When you decide to start living the life you continue dreaming of you will be so much more satisfied with the time you spend here on Earth than you ever imagined.

Trust me, you taught me this. 

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Wednesday, January 7, 2015

Crossing Lines

Here I go from state to state getting further away from the mausoleum for memories that I designed when you left. You always were crossing lines too soon speeding close to a hundred in a seventy- five. Darling, I am an adventurous soul, you of all people should have known that by now, my absence has been both spontaneous and deliberate. Hades has held me within his flame-filled grasp for far too long and it was far past the breaking point. Listen to me, Darling, I had dinner with strangers (who are now better friends than you've ever been). I went four days on two thirty minute "cat naps" and music (everything from Sarah Mclaughlan to Katy Perry). Ice and snow and sunshiney deserts; frigid wind whistling through gears followed by killing innocent tumbleweeds. Darling, you of all people should know that i am an adventurous soul - I am a crafter of my experiences.  A true artist. you shouldn't hold on so tightly or you'll be known forever more as "The Dream Catcher".

An Excuse

I have been away in order to move cross country. I have returned and I hope you had a beautiful new year. 

Thursday, January 1, 2015

Clean Calendar

Sometimes the only thing you can do for a new start is make your own canvass, find your own paints and break the brushes. Just use your hands. Create anything you want. Do whatever you like, but you need a new start so you have to do something about it.