Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Blue Bird Skies

You wrote me letters and left too early on our date. I wrote a single poem and you left. What kind of love were you?

Sunday, May 29, 2016

88 MPH Without the Gas

Nothing will ever be good enough for you if you can't slow down just a little longer. Please, take my word for it, before you learn the hard way and lose your wheels and the people around you. 

Friday, May 27, 2016

Blurred Lines

Really, I've always loved you, but this is a feeling unlike any other kind of love. It's a friendship and a family, it's romance and hope, it's killing time and laughing at once. 

Thursday, May 26, 2016

Youth of Summer

He road the bus home with me,
May was sticky on our skin as
mosquitoes sipped our blood and bones.

I remember playing basketball
out in the driveway and how we waved
at all the cars passing by hurriedly.

Then we went inside for lemonade -
the perfect treat, or so I thought
before he lifted me onto the counter...

soon I was entangled in his arms
swimming in his warmth, a moment later
I was queen of Louisiana summertime.

Nex’t thin’ I knew he was in my arms
and I was in his mouth. Nothing hungry,
but there wasn’t any innocence either.

Now that I think about it,
my first kiss was mostly bitter-sweet.
I’ll just blame that bayou heat. . .

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

Wallflowers and Populars Alke

Sometimes it's easier to grow up knowing who you are or what you care about than it is to grow up already knowing who you are. And it really can be those slight differences in awareness that shape our futures into the stories we'll tell with our final few words. 

Monday, May 23, 2016

Summer Road Trips

I suppose we all need gravel beneath our wheels and gas in the tank every once in awhile. We all just want to take a road out to a city we've never been before, every once in awhile. Thank you for remembering to say goodbye to me before taking off. 

Sunday, May 22, 2016

First Things First

I like to think that beauty outshines the madness - that petals are more brilliant than the thorns could ever be.

Maybe that is how you've managed to keep me alive for so long with nothing more than a glass jar, a handful of dirt, some water, and a spoonful of lullabies. 

Saturday, May 21, 2016

Flashing my Teeth

I've gotten you out of my system. Finally, I've flushed all the poison out and cleansed myself up. You will not kill me, now you cannot even phase me. 

Thursday, May 19, 2016

All for the Better

I've run away my habits of coffee all day, being afraid to sleep, and feeling uncomfortable every time I pass a mirror.

All of it without you here harping in my ear. 

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

Take to the Skies

These wings of mine sure are pretty, but you didn't have a goddamned thing to do with how I turned out. 

Sunday, May 15, 2016

Happy Everything!

This month is just full of beautiful little accomplishments. So happy birthday and congratulations and all those other incredibly wonderful things I should be saying but don't have the time for. 

Saturday, May 14, 2016

Volunteering - Good for the Soul

Today you pulled me close, as a complete stranger, and whispered that you had a present for me if only I could promise I'd keep restoring hope to generations older than my own.

Today I made four strangers weep joyfully.

Today you bettered me, more than I could ever have hoped.

Friday, May 13, 2016

A Few Dollars or a Smile

Maybe you aren't surrounded by strangers. But you are immersed in an ocean of kindness and generosity.

Please just embody your environment's beauty while you have time to form habits out of it. 

Thursday, May 12, 2016

Just Pushing Through

And even if today doesn't seem to be going the way it should, I promise you it's going to turn up.

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

Loaded With Blanks

When I wake up tomorrow this will all be over.

It's just another nightmare.

Tuesday, May 10, 2016

Burn Baby, Burn

I want to start a fire

my kindling you.

You know too hot
to touch, the burn -
the pain a candy

recalled from every shelf.

I want to start a fire

my kindling you.

I wonder if you
shake awake from
nightmares and her

like you did me.

I want to start a fire

my kindling you.

So I never have to
sleep in a bed of
strangers for a mere

moment with you. 

Monday, May 9, 2016

The Art of Science

Cancer -

always intertwined
with peace -
with you

but never been your's -

a part of me always.

Sunday, May 8, 2016

Saturday, May 7, 2016

Friday, May 6, 2016

Bye-Bye "Daddy"

I never asked for you to be in my life, and it's not my fault that we share any blood. So leave now or you'll lose me for whatever is left of eternity. 

Thursday, May 5, 2016

Immortalizing the Young and Free

Just so you know the tens of thousands of pages I've written since we met will hold on to our memories even when we've cast them away.

Nothing in my life will ever truly die. 

Wednesday, May 4, 2016

Standing Straighter

I'd ask you if you chose this as a profession merely because nothing else worked out, but you think me rude - forever misunderstanding my intentions.

If this was a fall back, you have even more potential than you realized. 

Tuesday, May 3, 2016

In Desperate Need of a Cleanse

I just want you to know I'm doing the best I can, because if I push myself to the very brink of my limits then I'll know just how much poison I can take, thus also finding out the best way to rid myself of said poison.
Really you should just be proud of me and stop asking questions. 

Monday, May 2, 2016

Itty Bitty Cinnamon Rolls

And I'm sure you know how messy your heart s to hold between the palms of these bare hands, but loving you wouldn't be the same otherwise.