Sunday, November 30, 2014

Moving Forward

Darling, how can you fail anything when everyone you know believes in you wholeheartedly? 

Friday, November 28, 2014

Made it to the Milkyway

Someday I am going to ask you to dance. Beneath the stars never as bright as you. In the moonlight eternal as our souls. Someday I am going to ask you to dance. I can only hope that you'll say yes. 

Thursday, November 27, 2014

A Local Tradition

I am thankful I met you. Even if it didn't end up how I was hoping.

I am thankful for the loving souls who surround me so much of the time.

I am thankful about the hope that is shared with me every day.

I am thankful I have someone new. someone so much better than you. 

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Uses of the Used

Dip me in your most vivid pigments. Pull me across your whitest canvass. Let me tell my story this time. And then, next time, I think you should create me. Define me with subtle textures and brilliant strokes. Bring me to life because you're the only one in this world who cam really do me any justice at all.

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Sending Love

Darling, I love you so much more than words can ever say. I don't think you understand that art is part of a persons' heart and that there are no colors or shapes that can do that any justice. You just don't get that the lyrics I mouth are telling you exactly how I feel when I actually sing to you, you just laugh at me and shrug it off even though they are the closest answer you will ever get as to how I am doing or what is bothering me today.

Darling, I love you so much more than you are prepared for. 

Monday, November 24, 2014

As the Tempest Believes

Oh angel, I hate this sensual pen I always catch it loving illumination the way pressed flowers love to sail in the wind. Never wishing itself beauty because it's never broken, bled, or cried a day in it's whole life. Oh angel, I hate this sensual pen for never drawing back it's silence or saying a for damn thing worth the light of day.

Sunday, November 23, 2014

Saturday, November 22, 2014

Best Friends' Fallout

" Can you tell that I have been crying?" I asked you with a fake smile beginning to form.

"Yes, but you're still more beautiful than anyone else out there." You smiled as you wrapped your safe arms around me.

"Thank you," I whispered staying as close to you as I could.

"You're welcome. your world may fall down, I may yell at you, they may not like you at school or work, you may hate yourself, but I will always know that you deserve more than any of that. So I will always love you with everything I have. I hope someone better can come along and treat you like the royalty you should be," you whispered almost silently as I began to fall asleep. 

Friday, November 21, 2014

Drunken Darling Goes Roar

Softly whispered dreams dance along milky pages as you drag your darkest pains across the faint lines echoing stories you never thought you would tell anyone. Tears on the sleeve of an unrecruited dreamer recording mix tapes for someone too young to understand. Dreaming becomes poetry and friendships solidify to love. I'll listen to you until time takes my hearing. I'll believe in you until Death himself dies. I'll be your number one fan forever and always. 

Thursday, November 20, 2014

Paint Only Comes in Crimson

She is a painter and a lover but her story has a twist because you see a match is the brush and the canvass is her wrist. Believe in me like I believe in you so you never have to know how it feels to be alone. You are the painter, not the brush. Never back down and never give up. 

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

Just Not the One

I know. It was because you loved me too much to stick around and see me in such pain. You figured it would be better to come back and help clean up afterwards. But your plan didn't really work because your absence killed me so much that I gave up on the rest. I know. You felt like a monster and couldn't bring yourself to face me again after the fact. It was because you loved me too much. I know. I understand.

You need to know.  I forgive you.

You need to know.

You should understand. 

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

The Note I Should Have Left

Dear you,

I borrowed your jacket while you were asleep in my bed, I  found the keys to your bike in the pocket. So I went for a drive. I just needed a night out with the stars a shot of change spiked with hope. I had no idea that fresh air would be more addicting than your kiss or the way your voice sounds at 4 am. honestly, I thought I'd be back my morning and I'm so sorry I wasn't.


P.S. I'll bring you the keys and your bike but I'm keeping the leather.
For now.

Monday, November 17, 2014

So Much More

I know, I know you don't want to hear this, but I am going to say it anyway:

you just don't understand.


your whore.

Sunday, November 16, 2014

Saturday, November 15, 2014

At Sea Level

"You think this is bad?" he asks you as kindly as he can manage.

Simply you nod then shake your head "no" hoping you haven't given yourself away.

"Man, this ain't nothing yet," he laughs as he walks away shaking his head up at the sky.

You can always go lower, especially from here. The good news about that is that you don't ever have to be alone again. 

Friday, November 14, 2014

In a Blinded House

You are an imperfect dream loved by a dreamer. For that you will go down in history.

Thursday, November 13, 2014

With Love, Chernobyl

If you knew how you make me feel you would probably move closer when i only want you to go away. Darling, loving me is a suicide mission unlike any other. 

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Halloween Parties

Who are you pretending to be this time Darling?

Oh and don't forget to smile for the camera!

It's always good to get out of your head for a while.

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Sunshiney Words

Sometimes just saying good morning to them is the difference between your own day being average or something spectacular. 

Monday, November 10, 2014

Unspoken Promises

I've never once told you i would be around every day from now until the end of the Earth. Until the ends of time and back. But I wish so much that I could have. Because you deserve someone that perfect.

Even if it's not me.

Saturday, November 8, 2014

Another Wrong Number

This morning someone called me asking to speak with you, I sighed and explained that you haven't been here in over a year. They apologized for my loss of such a remarkable soul and said that they didn't mean to bother me it's just that they saw you recently. You were looking worse than ever, unhealthy, unhappy, broken even and they wanted to tell you that you are still the most beautiful person they have ever known. Even in your pain. So I'm sure you'll never listen to this message, but Hun, if they were able to find you, please, give them a chance if you're not already in someone else's arms because it's so rare to meet someone who can find pure, genuine beauty in a soul instead of a body. And there was something in their voice, something so honest, so kind that they are so much more than someone to hold on to.

Because people who find pure, genuine beauty are among the rarest in the world.

And you deserve nothing less than perfection. 

In the Dark

You come here day after day, thinking every word I write for you. And that's true. But sometimes it isn't. Sometimes they are for someone else. There are times when someone needs them more than you do. And I've never been sure how to tell you that without hurting you, but I'm tired of the not knowing. So I hope you understand. 

Friday, November 7, 2014

Still Missing Tempo

Nostalgia woke from her slumber and Apollo fell to his giant knees. Time stopped and everything froze. Hearts danced and souls beamed. As I escaped in a valley of notes and melody. The same valley I created for you when you still visited me. Even if it was only in your dreams. 

Thursday, November 6, 2014

Believe in Something More

I know you find hope in the strangest of places. You find hope in blue sky sunshiney days and in glass-like drops of rain. You find hope in their smile and then again in their eyes. Don’t worry, Darling, we all do it sometimes.

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

Forever Bright

You feast on falling stars and dine with endless skies. Your teachers are only the best of the best. When you love it's with all your heart and soul and absolutely nothing less. The tea tastes the best when it's too hot and coffee's better stale and cold. And somehow you are still the most beautiful soul anyone will ever meet.

Monday, November 3, 2014

Fade Away

I miss all of our crazy family photos. Thanks for visiting long enough to update one. I hope you're doing well. I love you all so, so very much. 

Sunday, November 2, 2014

If I am a Monster

Feeling the blood dripping as it paints over my shattered shell again. And you've told me that you'd love to join me for one of these moments considering blood and I do the same things to you. Exactly. So put us together and I can only imagine how things would go. And still you and this blood are the only two things in this world that can make me feel alive.

Saturday, November 1, 2014

A Night in Your Arms

Beat, Beat, Beating
as you must
to keep us going.

Beat, Beat, Beating
me a lullaby
when sleep is late.

A sign of love,
of wholeness
and protection,
pure beauty.

Beat, Beat, Beating
keeping time
with our breathing.

Beat, Beat, Beating
thank you, Love,
it's complete perfection.