Wednesday, November 21, 2018

Tears of Exhaustion



There's nothing wrong. At least nothing I know of.

The tears just don't like my eyes. And my mind

is tired of developing blurry pictures -

its such a waste of energy.


My shadow sits against the wall wondering when

I'll hand her off to a decent conversationalist,

even though walls will never talk and floor boards

just complain. I know it's all fun and games to you,

to them, to everyone else, but my mind just can't

pick up on that - just can't grasp why something

so cruel could ever be so funny. There's a person

stuck in the mirror staring back at me,

they say it gets better, but they've got the devil's

famous grin buried beneath countless layers of

make up and lies.


That stupid voice in my head, the one deeper than my own,

the one everyone knows to ignore - everyone that is but me,

reminds me just how tiny i am in this great big world. It's like

my mind doesn't know when to stop, the pain brings more pleasure

than the strangers calling me pretty as they offer to

buy me some fruity drink down the block (I love the look

on their faces when I end downing shit stronger than their own.)

there's nothing wrong. At least nothing I know of.


I just woke up today and realized that i'm not who I thought I was.


That I'm not who you think I am.


I am just another

impostor

in your bed.
    

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