The Great Wall of China

If you want to understand it you've got to see what it's like to crumble then rebuild it. Make it something remarkable. 

It Needed to be Said

It doesn't take the world to make me love you, just the fact that you're here with me through it all. Thank you for always being my biggest fan.

Sorry it took me so long to get around to letting you know. 

Teenage Angst

Just so you know, my habits may seem a little off-putting and at times maybe even disgusting. But I am merely a snake shedding my skin so I no longer have to taste the lie covered lips that first introduced me to that thing you call a "kiss". And I let myself bleed whenever possible because it is the only remotely safe way to expel all the poisons from the negative energies that so easily find their way to me each and every single goddamn day. Oh and should you ever walk in to find me drowning myself in ink, cold coffee, and rum don't worry. I'll be perfectly sober in the morning, my thoughts just have a way of running away at night. Just so you know, I am perfectly sane and safe enough to love.

I'm just not stable.

Love,
Adreamer searching for herself








All photo credits go to a friend of mine.

Not Perfect, Not Alone

Stockings filled with memories and photographs and a few scattered cards may have been the only things under the tree this year. But at least you were around it with people who love you enough to laugh with you anyway. 

Because we Have To

At least this way we have a chance at running into some snow. Even if that means in no way that we'll be happy to see you. 

Neccesary Knowledge

I never lied to you, you know, I meant it every time I said it. I loved you in each and every one of those moments. So completely, so freely. 

Even Blissfully. 

True Stories, Yo

It has gotten late, but these are the moments you will remember most. So take my hand and together we will find ourselves in the midst of learning each other's particularities. 

Diamonds in the Rough

Someday someone will come along and see nothing more than how brightly you shine. 

Hard to Breathe

Things won't be this difficult forever. That much I promise. 

Little to no Shiny Wrapping

Not everyone is going to have a traditional holiday this year, but I hope you enjoy your celebrations anyway.

Because at least you'll be with people you love. 

Daily Routines

And as you lose your face in the mirror tracing thoughts of everyone you still have time to be, deciding how you will present yourself today we hope you can find a clear and passionate desire to stay as true to your honest self as possible. Even if we have yet to meet this side we (okay, I) will continue to love you with every drop of purity in the world and every ounce of wonder from all of time and history. 

Moving So Fast

Don't blame me for neglecting to put my life on hold while you decided all the things you did not want and nothing you did. I have to live for myself, and you do too.

Left Turns Only

Fate so cruel in her wicked ways what makes her so important in the grand scheme of things anyway? Threads unraveling, paths unclear, what you've done, I don't know, but this is so much more than real.

Clipped Wings and Short Legs

The sky may look different wherever you are now than it does here where I am. But it's the only thing we'll ever truly have in common so I hope that whenever you miss me or you feel alone that you're able to look up and know I'm with you.

And if you can't then may you at least see the beauty of your soul smiling back at you from among the clouds and stars.




For the person who took this photograph. 

To Soar Onward

Go ahead and conquer your fears, nothing good will ever come of limiting yourself. 

Something New

I want you to give me white roses

that kind that are pure as snow -

just beginning to bloom with hopes

and unbroken promises galore.

When they are young I'll smell them
every morning and water them at noon -
I want to press the petals between
pulp and ink just before the brown
starts to appear. White roses please.

Next time you're looking for a way

to bring a little more cheer to the day -

trying to replicate the sun and make

me feel at home, remember that

white roses will do the trick.

Look for the ones (or one) that
screams: "I love you" and still
embodies a new born ghost -
find the ones that make you think

"The whole world

is at our fingertips."

Left a Few Scratches

Just know, even after everything, I'll remember you fondly. Because you met me before I was able to understand the meaning of being fragile.

That being said, your TTGF and her family wish you both happy holidays and a great birthday!

Reasoning

Did you ever notice the unparalleled perfection in my poems from the moments in your arms?
If you can keep a secret I'll tell you that you're more than a muse.

You're my reason. 

Bountiful Blossom

My darling little flower, you always did stand on center stage and shock everyone in the audience. You were a lovely little daisy, with powers so completely unlike any other that you were the new standard for all others to come. Conditions, no matter how awful could never deter your faith or make you any less stunning than you already were. I don't understand how you did it, but i am so glad you did. 

Frog Girl's Eighteenth

Maybe you've still got a few months til you take can hop, but you've been getting used to your gills for a while now too. So I really can't wait to see what's to come from you and all the opportunities ahead.

Today's about you and I hope you feel loved and supported among the celebration. 

Carbon's Purest Form

All you ever have to be is yourself. I promise. 

Walking While Broken

Understand me when I say this, because there’s only so much energy I have with which to explain so much. I don’t know what I’m doing here or how the hell I’m going to survive this. I don’t think I know where I am or how to find my way back home again. More than likely you are going to see me wandering the streets of this too big, wannabe city; just ignore the tears rattling and the blood dripping down my face and body. And please listen with every ounce of focus you have because I’ve finally cracked and I need help.

Oh, and darling, I don’t know if you’ll believe this or not, but I do need you. I need you to keep your promise of staying here.

Don’t leave me.

Wallflowers and Populars Alike

Sometimes it’s easier to grow up knowing who or what you care about than it is to grow up already knowing who you are. and it really can be those slight differences in  awareness that shape our futures into the stories we’ll tell with our final few hundred words.

To All the "Big Sisters"

I never thought I would miss you nearly as much as I do, especially since I envied every move you made and how perfectly it all seemed to go. Anyway, I just want you to know, I'm still here should you ever need me - 'cause it's been a while since I've heard from you. 

Runaway Artist

Everyone laughs at me for drawing a rose on your nose with your parents right behind me. They call me crazy for writing poetry on your arms in my dreams. No one believes that I'll ever make it anywhere if I am impulsive and my work is washable. But your chest is perfect for whipped cream portraits and your tongue is the most comforting pen I've ever known. Everyone laughs. They call me crazy. No one believes that I'll ever make it. So just you watch with love on my side and ink in my veins I can do anything.

In Need of Expansion

How are you supposed to grow if there's no conflict to learn from?

Sweetly Fading Images

Is she a being of light only ever renewed by exploding stars and space that never actually ends. If she's a being of light what are you?

Fondly

Just so you know, I'm okay with being forgotten.

But you will always be remembered. 

Shaded Grays

There will be times where change is just as necessary as breathing. 

The Best Guest

Someday you are going to invite yourself over for dinner and you're going to say that you love the meal (even if you can barely eat it). When you are finished eating you will invite yourself up the stairs and into my library. You will see all the journals and notebooks I have filled over the years - I will let you peruse them as you please.

And as strange as it seems, you will leave as a completely different soul.

Entering Reality

I’m not going to ask you some psychological mumbo-jumbo, overly used, ordinary question like, “what’s your favorite color?”... “Oh, so you’re this, that, and this” just to learn your basics. I won’t tell you that we’re perfect just because we like the same bands and a movie or two. And I can’t promise any sort of forever, or even just a lifetime when I say “I love you”. But each time I ask a question, I’m honestly curious and everything we have in common is just a little more glue for our frame. Oh, and every single time I do say words like those, I’ll sincerely mean them, with every fiber of my being, in those moments (and I’ll remember them forever). Because this should be real and honest and true. Even if it doesn’t last. 

The Tides Returned

You never used to be so poetic, words weren't ever your strong suit at all  but neither were numbers spelled out in equations. Romanticism  was never your friend and the way we always stayed in made me feel like you were ashamed of me - like I was an embarrassment of a lover. So I broke myself down and I lied, I tore you to shreds and I ran away long before you had the sense to call an ambulance. I didn't realize that our love made you so unstable, and how could I when you were never even there?

So don't let my return drag your heart up to the shore from the furthest, darkest depths if you're going to take that as false hope and try to steal someone else's chance t happiness.

Maybe we both made mistakes, but there was a reason I left and you stayed in that world you created in your head. 

Sleeplessly

It's not that we needed another

sunrise -

simply that we were waiting
on Dawn

for all the wrong reasons.

Happy Thanksgiving!!!!!!!

Just so you know, because today's the day you're supposed to share your wealth with the world, because today's all about what you have and not what you lack - I just wanted to tell you: I am grateful for you.

For being a reader and coming here as often as you do.

For being a friend and letting me rant to you four or five days a week.

For being part of the family as you laugh along side memories you've never lived, but relate to whole heartedly.

For every great thing you've ever done for the world that no one else acknowledged.

I am so thankful you found your way to these words. Thank "God" these wires introduced us. 

Understanding the Basics

Believe in yourself.

First. 

Flags in the Wind

You may bend, wave, or even shake - but there will always be more to you than what meets the eye, 

In Rain

I find peace in rain because then I know that I'm not the only one crying - the world has had
a rough day too. And the way it feels to have the drops smooth out the bumps as they roll down window panes and goosebumps is amazing. I find peace in rain because that way  I don't feel so alone
shattering myself for the good of another.

And the smiles that spread around town as kids splash through puddles of clarity instead of the muddy banks of confusion. It's beautiful. I find peace in rain because rain is rare, as am I, we don't come around here every day like the sand and the surf or the concerts in L.A. And together we are unstoppable, incredible, invincible -

two outliers ready to shift the entire balance of this plane.

Left to Wonder

We just needed time to go our separate ways,
the kind of time that makes you wonder
what you have where you are and what you want
in the nearing days. The days that lie ahead

in wake and wonder, ready to make

all your past dreams come true.

With promises unbroken and stories

begging to be told, there's something

about the future that welcomed this -

these moments we needed just to sit

by the ocean listening to the waves,

tracing our footprints along the shore,
ranting with the stars above our heads,
visiting the places that hold memories

remembering everything, forgetting nothing.

We just needed time to figure all this out,

days turned into weeks and weeks morphed

into months, which blended into years. . .

I hope you haven't decided on coming back,
because I've found someplace new and
another heart to call my permanent home.

A Keeper of Symbolism

I am the color sky blue,
I, me, my - we're a
fascination.

Sky blue, simply time, 

wind, and sand in your

hair.

Sky blue, the color 

life spreads

joyfully. . .

I have many meanings, 

but I will always be

sky

blue

Rolling Waves

If I were easy, would you still sit here doing nothing but holding me?

I'm Still Here

I know you have a lot on your plate right now. And I'm sure that makes things seem darker than they actually are. If you're scared, or worried, or frightened in any way, come back to me. So I can help you laugh again.

Your happiness helps make the rest of the world glisten even when the grey clouds take over the sky. 

Flat on Your Face

Taken by a Friend While in Europe

Just laugh it off Darling, everyone falls sometimes

Like the Hippies and Poets of Today

Please leave your head in the clouds for all of time.

You’re such a beautiful dreamer. 

Paint me Freely

Because someday you'll be just as famous as Frost's "The Road Less Traveled." Make me give Mona Lisa a run for her money. 

Smooth Sailing

Just say it, with me, I am perfectly healthy. Everything is alright. I am smart. I am ok. This will soon pass.

Now say it again and this time believe it. 

Forming Fossils

Someday you and I are going to change the way people around us see the rest of the world. They may not remember our names or faces, but they will most certainly be grateful when the time comes.

the Devil's Assistant

Silence might be your savior, but to me she's just another homicidal maniac. 

Moving into Love

I could stay here for hours lost in the rise and fall of your breathing. I could make a home in your veins or burrow between your arms. We could sit here trading dreams, sharing hope, and feasting on memories soaked in laughter if only you’d say it’s something you want too.  

Maybe Someday

When I was young I'd fight to throw away my projects when they were finished. It wasn't that I didn't want or like them, but I knew I could do better and that was all that mattered. You did the same thing with me about writing, my letters, my hope - only I never won a fight with you unless I wanted words spewed from your perfectly parched lips. Not that I'd ever really know what they were like. I should have listened when I was young.

Maybe if I had, you'd still be here. 

Red Hot Coals

You do not get to ruin anymore days of my lifetime. I'm sure this will hurt you more than you have ever hurt me.