Thursday, October 30, 2014
Falling Stars
Wednesday, October 29, 2014
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
Sunday, October 26, 2014
My Dearest Photographer
And here you are, proving me wrong yet again.
Saturday, October 25, 2014
Stranger Tides
I know I looked at you with horrible alien eyes and that that was enough to hurt you more than you hurt me by saying those words. Yes, I was fighting tears and I swear I thought you weren't able to see them pushing makeup from my eyes but i guess everyone gets things wrong sometimes. Honestly, I could have sworn that you could hear my heart breaking from the moon and maybe even Mars or Jupiter, but i suppose that it's such a common sound no one would ever notice.
I know I looked at you with alien eyes so realistic you were able to feel a piece of yourself dying because you'd finally proved me wrong.
I'm so sorry I ever looked your way in the first place.
Friday, October 24, 2014
Thursday, October 23, 2014
The Longest Night in History
I’ve never seen a more memorable, more beautiful, more mesmerizing sight than watching shadows and light fight over your features again and again. The battle would get so close then the light would win. There was a spark in your eyes even in the darkest of times, a spark that reached out and just held my heart so sweetly with such sour tendencies as though everything would be okay. As though we were exactly where we were meant to be. So I stood before you happier than I can ever remember being and I melted for you, I jumped with you and together we learned what it means to love ourselves and each other. To love the lives we live. And for that I thank you immensely.
Wednesday, October 22, 2014
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
A Song of Memories
I know you are not able to hear me. That you are no longer here. That you have already been forgotten. But please, let me say the words I have been trying to say for so long. Be the things I need you to be - codes made of awkward glyphs tasked with carrying meanings from one soul to another. Let me keep my faith in you despite your awful past. And tell everyone who lived once and died before I found this pen that they will be remembered forevermore. Not for who they were or what they did or did not do, but for creating the world with each breath they took. For leaving something buried in nothingness behind. Not for their name, but for ours. Please words, tell them they are not alone. Say that they - each and every one - was great. and comfort them - comfort the living, as unimportant as we are- by pointing out that the greatest tragedy of all time is simply that Time could not last ling enough for them to meet all of us before taking them away.
Monday, October 20, 2014
Falling Stars
I can only do so much to fix your wings but I swear I'll do everything I can and more. Because you belong in the sky where starry-eyed boys and girls can always find you. Where heaven is within reach and the angels can protect you forever and always. Where the goddamned loneliness and emptiness of sorrow can that did this to you once can never do it again. I can only do so much to fix your wings, but I swear I'll do everything I can and more.
Even if it kills me.
Sunday, October 19, 2014
Friday, October 17, 2014
Thursday, October 16, 2014
Sixth Grade Parties
You remember all the fun we had when we were younger, you remember more of it than I do. But I still remember the hours we spent looking at each other saying that the other got to decide what we did this time because we decided together last time. I remember more of the beautiful silence than the words we shared. I remember more of the vague details than the important moments that made our story what it was. Thank you so much for asking me how I was doing, even after so long.
Wednesday, October 15, 2014
Friday Nights and Saturday Sparks
You don't want to know that there are times when i talk to the bottle before downing it. There are times when I watch them mix the poison for me and beg it to be the one that finally finishes me off. That there are times when all I want is to be carried away in the smoke with the rest if the perfectly baked ash. You didn't want to know that so I waited until you were asleep to say anything even remotely close to this.
Tuesday, October 14, 2014
Monday, October 13, 2014
Sunday, October 12, 2014
Saturday, October 11, 2014
Friday, October 10, 2014
Thursday, October 9, 2014
Wednesday, October 8, 2014
Say Cheese
This morning someone wanted to take my picture
for the school news paper and my friends
couldn't understand why I let them.
So I smiled,
"Well whenever people tell me to smile for the camera
I just think of you. (Yes you, the person reading this
right now.)
And people love to ask why other people always
expect you to smile in photographs. And I tell them
it is because we hope that in the future this is
something to smile about.
So I don't understand why you won't smile for me.
Its so much more wonderful and worthwhile when you do."
Oh and by the way, I love your smile
so much.
Tuesday, October 7, 2014
Monday, October 6, 2014
Glass Snow Falls Beautifully
Sometimes it amazes me that we end up like this so often. I don't mean to complain. (I love every second I have with you). I just wish I were something a little more special than your unnamed emergency hotline for dark thoughts and destructive ideas.
Sunday, October 5, 2014
Saturday, October 4, 2014
Flames vs. Moths
I know you rarely listen to me but before you go flying to the sun, the trap has killed so many of your kind I would like you to hear me out. Please. The flames may look beautiful and they may be wonderful treasures in store for you. But if not you are dying for nothing and so far at this point you have yet to live for anything either. If a kiss is just a kiss all of you die for nothing anyway. But if there’s passion, love, or hope you have so much in store for yourself. Please, please, just don’t throw that all away so easily.
Friday, October 3, 2014
Thursday, October 2, 2014
Learning to Fly
When you say those three words (I love you) you are also saying "Every time you leave I miss you. I hope you miss me too." And by saying that you give someone the power and permission to shatter every piece of you to smithereens. But, Darling, I have broken people before and I refuse to do it to anyone else. Especially you.
I love you.
I miss you.
I will be home soon.
Wednesday, October 1, 2014
Pennies For a Poet's Thoughts
Do you really want my honest answer? Are you sure? Well, first you need to be warned that these words will never apply to you and they will always apply to you. Before I explain what I am thinking right now, I need you to know I love you, I only ever want the very best for you, even when I seem just a tiny but too harsh. Really, I cannot tell you until you understand that even every word used to describe the glory of their so called "God" will never do you the justice I not only believe but whole heartedly know without a shadow of a doubt that you deserve. Darling, you asked me what is traveling through my mind right this moment, but I have already thoroughly briefed you on the weather, you already know where you are in my heart, and still you wonder where my thoughts might be at any moment?
This is precisely why I love you even half as much as I do. Thank you for making me smile every chance you get. You are in my every thought.
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